I am back to the time when I
feel extremely tired after going through a very long day, but at the same time,
totally restless. It’s like you can’t even shut down your eyes just because you
have a lot to think about. And it is a great time to write, for I hope it will
help me to get sleepy, but also to take out all of the problems in heart
–something that I can’t do tonight by talking loudly to YOU-know-who like I
always did, because I am sharing the room with someone else.
So, I still am struggling with
the negative mindset. Sometimes, I do feel like somebody is talking behind my
back, and dislikes me. It’s just…. I am not 100% calmed and in fact, always
feel anxious about everything.
The other thing is the thing I
always get busy thinking about –both career and life partner. Well, maybe life
partner is one hell of a term, but… I always thought I was about to spend the
journey with this one guy, but now that I suddenly feel different about
everything, I am unsure if my heart really changed. It feels like a mixture of
everything, or maybe I am just too busy doing works and stuffs. I just…..don’t
know yet.
And you want to talk to
somebody about your career too. You want to talk to someone who will
understand. You want to talk to someone who has power. You want to talk to
someone with experience. And the list goes on and on.
And with the forum…. A lot of
things going on…. And on…… And it’s just so many things occupying my head at
the moment, I hardly get them all out.
Maybe… I just need some time to
relax, after the whole days I feel discouraged going to the office, or just
lazy, again I am not 100% sure.
Let’s get this done with first,
then. Come on, Gadis. Give yourself something to be proud of, please?? Show the
spirit. You can do it!!!
1 comment:
Gadis, what's wrong with you?
Be strong baby! I got something to tell ya
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