I learn to believe, that when
things get tough, it is actually a way of God to let you get closer to him. This
is actually not a new thing, somebody close has been telling me the same thing
over and over again. However, it’s just hard to believe, because when you feel
crushed, you hardly believe that God loves you. It is so much easier to just
hate him and feel the opposite.
There have been few incidents
happened to me lately, that led me to believe in that. One of my new housemate
shared some of her experiences, the one that taught me to surrender, and let
God do the rest when you have done your best. She taught me how to start having
faith, when I feel really down and full of sorrow for facing a lot of troubles
in live. Yes, this is an old stuff to tell, but when it gets to the right
moment, it feels amazingly different, yet right.
One of my colleagues and
friends, told me how she and other people surround me thought about me: full of
negativity –that in real life translates into tons of complaints, each time for
each thing in life. Again, this is not something fresh to me. It’s been dumped
to my face so many times ago, through so many different people, but the impact
has never been the same. I was heartbroken, in pain, but then I finally found
the courage to get up and start doing things differently –and I really hope it
is not temporary.
There was also a movie called “Letters
to God” who told this story about a 10 year-old kid who had brain cancer but
then believed in himself as the warrior of God –that gave him strength to be
strong and encourage other people. It was always easy to be touched, but then
it is not easy to take the “signal” into action.
But here I am, trying to grasp
the learning and synthesize it into this writing, for I feel the urge to create
a memory of my turning point in life –which will then force me to keep my way
on track of this new life: A life with positivity.
I started to realize, that life
is just too beautiful, and too abundant to just cry and feel lonely for. Having
a perspective is a must, the one that will ease your burden, and not the
opposite.
In short, now I understand why
I should not feel discouraged, because only then you have the time to talk to
the Lord, share your deepest feeling, and then feel released, for you know that
He’ll take care of the rest, when you have done your best. ;
