tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48436679072421780232024-03-05T04:36:59.977-08:00people. passion. perspective.<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.comBlogger593125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-65507325809820173532016-11-02T02:52:00.000-07:002016-11-02T10:26:18.573-07:00Life's Update (finally after soooo many months)Oh well.. It's been forever since my last post...<br />
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And while there were too many things happening in between, I am just forever grateful that I am still alive and intact.<br />
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I think the biggest differences happened because of Happy5. With the abundant time flexibility, the great people I work with; I had the chance to travel, read books I've been wanting to read, meet and talk to people, reconnect, explore myself and have a little bit of inner peace. And the journey has been wonderful.<br />
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Although there are times when I feel bored, and not-so-productive (unlike my usual state in the past), this company does more good than harm to my life. Oh, and at the end of the day, you can't really complain for God's blessings the entire time.<br />
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Really, I mean, the more I travel, the more I feel grateful to be born in this country that is now presenting countless opportunities for us to explore countless things. Don't get me wrong, I do agree it's a concrete jungle here, but overall, there are too many things that are way too precious to just ignore.<br />
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To always be in a constant search of self, I learn how much I like to cook to kill time, how much I like to be recognized for my work, and how uncertainty can get you stronger than ever. I am still being myself: stubborn, emotional, expressive, impatient and of course, annoying. But I feel like I am more in control of myself, which is good, I hope. And I tried to eliminate a lot of annoying things from my emotional state, just to stay sane and intact.<br />
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I hiked, which I totally loved (with the ups and downs --they're the ones that make it memorable).<br />
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And probably Shonda Rhimes' The Year of Saying Yes really woke me up. It's just an inconvenient fact that we can never have it all. WE JUST CAN'T. We will always miss things in all kind of decisions. It's so relevant to the Fear of Missing Out (FOMO) trend that is now sooooo prevalent with the emerging social media behavior. But that's exactly what will make us regret our lives, however imperfect and perfect it is. We will just never get satisfied with what we have, because we will keep on comparing while the truth was just as simple as that other people miss out on other things.<br />
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Of course, you will always have to improve. Life is not perfect, doh?????<br />
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BUT I AM HAPPY. I AM CONTENT. I made the right decision to move out of a very negative environment. And I am not worried about the future of the company, because we are all in great Hands, sticking together. And this will only make us stronger.<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-18171375145931659902016-06-16T00:15:00.002-07:002016-06-16T00:15:22.664-07:00Being a foot soldier, there are many times we don't understand why the company does this and that, agains our beliefs, against our preference, things that do not make any sense to us. We do not really understand why we get only little adjustment this year, especially compared to last year, especially when we have showed better performance along this year.<br />
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As a leader, it is never easy to juggle between tidying up, pushing performance, inspiring the team members and coaching at the same time. Leaders, like any other human beings miss a little bit here and there. At the end of the day, you can't do it all, and you can't please everyone.<br />
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The gap in between is the thing that makes a difference. Either you address that gap, or you don't -take things for granted, which is certainly going to get worse.<br />
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The foot soldiers would not feel happy, they feel like they have been taken for granted, that they are under appreciated, and that the company does not care about that. What they have yet to understand is that the leader was trying to organize the system, take care some of the mess that happened before them, including the liabilities that were not settled previously. As a result, to cover up all the losses and liabilities, there were only few left to be disbursed across the organization, hence the small adjustment. It is beyond just appreciation.<br />
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How are you going to fill in that gap, then? Do you even want to address it?<br />
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If people have been wondering where I am today, I am having the moment of my life: trying to help companies address their communication issues rather than letting it unsettled. At the end of the day, people crave for direction and logical reasons behind everything. If we understand where the company is heading, where we are going as an organization, it shall help to align our goals towards that. Or even leave, if that's what's best.<br />
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I am chilling out, more than usual. But I do hope I still create the impact I dream to deliver. Fingers crossed.<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-81218893036088337862016-06-15T22:40:00.001-07:002016-06-15T22:40:35.412-07:00Acupuncture Session, The Earth, Ourselves<div class="MsoNormal">
Today marks the 9<sup>th</sup> session of my acupuncture
schedule. Just like any other relationship that gets deeper over time, our
conversation evolves from talking about my health to the traffic to the economy,
and today about the environment. We were talking about how damaged the earth
has been, yet nothing concrete has taken place in a massive scale to act upon
it. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The fact struck me. I was just involved in another conversation
the previous day about how blessed our generations are with the advancement in
technology that allows us to grab too many opportunities to figure out who we
are and what we want to be, not to mention thet endless possibilities anywhere
we go, or any path we take. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">The only focus of our
conversation was just how one individual could benefit, creating impact to the
surroundings, but to fulfill one’s purpose in life –not to give back. <o:p></o:p></i></div>
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There are too many times we think about ourselves. As a
human being myself, I understand how we are raised around the idea of growing
ourselves, being someone useful and successful. Not many people were raised
with the value of giving back, or preserving the nature –for that matters. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I could go on with another discussion on how sucks our
education and parenting system that we fail to teach our children with the most
practical and useful skills that are relevant to what we need: decision making,
stress-coping, career-building, even problem solving. <o:p></o:p></div>
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But the most important issue that I want to highlight here is
that we simply haven’t realized the utmost critical problem as a human being,
we still seek to please ourselves by “trying to find” the best opportunities
that will most benefit us while the earth is suffering to its death. Yes, just
like human being, the earth is dying, and it’s waiting for the time to extinct.
Tick, tock.<o:p></o:p></div>
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What we have yet to realized is also the fact that what we
do as an individual matter. In fact, our consumption pattern is one key
ingredients to its extinction. Modernity has brought simplicity and
practicality in every aspect of our lives, that the supermarket we go to, due
to the increased demand, ask their suppliers to feed them with more and more
supplies. So they invented stockbreeding: even wild animal like salmon is now
being breed (gossip spread is that you can choose the color of your breed
salmon). The quality of the food is compromised, but that’s they only way to
meet the demand, even if it means to transport that from a faraway place that
cost tons of carbon footprints. <o:p></o:p></div>
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We do not really grow our own vegetables anymore, although
it equals to healthier lifestyle. We do not use environmentally friendly this
and that (which is now plenty) because we are not used to. We still use
plastic, even though it’s broadcasted to have polluted our air and water. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Something’s gotta change. And despite the news and research, there’s so little
being done to address this, which is pitiful. And so my acupuncturist argued it’s
because of the political interests of big companies that drive governments of
the world to do this and that, and not to do this and that –because their
interest is at stake. <o:p></o:p></div>
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My point is, let’s not rely on anybody. Just rely on ourselves.
Start thinking from ourselves. Stop thinking about benefitting from others.
Begin to benefit others. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Whenever
we were on a fight, there was too many times I found myself asking whether all
of these are worth our struggle –or whether we are even meant to be together?
There were moments I questioned myself, if I could do it for a long term,
whether we would be happy regardless, or even if marriage was for me. I felt
weak and torn whenever we had a tough argument. I just could not stand you
being mad at me. I am hopeless.<o:p></o:p></div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-73504397734346280002016-01-07T08:22:00.002-08:002016-01-07T08:22:29.525-08:00Role Model<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify; text-justify: inter-ideograph;">
I
grew up feeling different to most people, even to my peers. Yes, I complain a
lot, all the time. Thought it was because of my perfectionism, as I wanted
everything to be perfect according to my standard, and yes my standard is high.
My closest friends always wish me the same thing on my birthday: gratitude. It
seems like everything in the world was always wrong for me, I am just this
ungrateful person that is in dire need to learn growing up in others’ shoes who
are not as privileged as I am. <o:p></o:p></div>
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And
yes, I do try my best to change, I still do, realizing how that attitude has
made my life so difficult, and made it very difficult to create a content,
happy feeling deep inside.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Although,
the more I think about it, I really want to ask if it was me who has a very
high standard or is it the rest of the people here have a very low standard
that they could compromise on many things. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I
have been to many hospitals ever since I was infected by Hepatitis A back in
July 2011. I was hospitalized for almost two weeks, and that was my first
experience being treated in a serious medication as I also suffered Dengue and
Typhoid. Last year, I had been to 3 otolaryngologists (expert for ear, nose and
throat) in one hospital due to my hearing impairment (yes, even when I caught
bad flu, I would be losing some ability to hear well). In the same year, I
injured my ligament that it was torn; I had my lymph nodes swollen, and so many
digestion problems.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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And
so I have been to many, many hospitals and felt like I was being wronged by the
medical expertise and service providers. In one hospital, they would change the
doctor’s schedule just an hour before its original schedule. In the same
hospital, they could not confirm if the doctor will be on leave just 1,5 hours
before its original practice schedule. I needed to wait for 1 hour just to be
checked by a doctor despite getting the first queue. Oh, and in fact this
morning I waited 40 minutes to get my bills taken care of. I even got two
contrasting views for my torn ligament. I just couldn’t believe how other
patients could bear with such treatment. It was just unbelievable!<o:p></o:p></div>
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I
mean, seriously, people do have jobs, and they can’t just leave the job to
afford 1,5 hours waiting time, or to be left with such uncertainty given the
tight schedule at work. Or what about people living so far away and they got
one-way ticket to go to the hospital because that’s all they have that day?
What if they have gone to the hospital only to find out that the doctor is not
coming?<o:p></o:p></div>
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The
more I travel to developed countries, like what I just did to Australia, I
simply could not understand why our country could not perform the way they did.
We impose such big taxes for our houses, incomes, everything, basically. But
how do they end up with great public transportation and we don’t? And how do
you expect me not to complain for such low standard that we posses? Aren’t we
supposed to be better than that?<o:p></o:p></div>
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I
really, really feel uneasy about these stuff and people tell me to shut up and
think positive, which I did. I mean, I am grateful to be able to afford the
medical treatment, although I feel so sorry for those who have less money and I
believe they are treated worse. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Not
so sure how I got all these burning emotion, but I am deeply mad about the way
we perform things here. And I haven’t really mentioned how it is in the
workforce: people do things just because. They don’t really put any heart,
thoughts into many things. As a result, you’ll be devastated looking at the
quality of work. <o:p></o:p></div>
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However,
when I met Meilani today, just like what I always got whenever I met her, I
became embarrassed of how I failed to be able to see things positively the way
I should. She is very close to God, she prays for every single thing and she
embraces challenges depending on Him. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">It
made a difference</i>, I can tell you. <o:p></o:p></div>
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From
all her stories, you know she is blessed, not because of the wealth she
generated from her hard work, but for the smile she puts on her face all the
time –even when things are so tough, she would remember what she prayed for and
she knew it was God’s way of helping her. So she felt God’s grace every time
she asked. Every time. In many different ways. She would boost you with so much
positive energy. <o:p></o:p></div>
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is funny how she mentioned praying for a more mature self, and how she was
reminded when she faced one issue at work and was about to burst, that it was
God’s way of making her to become more emotionally stable. It is funny how she
would pray to God to help her in a silly situation and God answered her
directly at the same time. <o:p></o:p></div>
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She
saw a challenge as an opportunity. That is what is meant by positivity. And as
much as I tried to become positive, I felt ashamed for my failure because I got
tempted all the time and most of the time I fell into that temptation: getting
so angry for so many things that did not turn out the way I wanted. <o:p></o:p></div>
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It
shall not be another unfulfilled promise. 2016 is the year to be better. It
gotta start somewhere, right? And I feel blessed for being able to get such
great role model as a start. <o:p></o:p></div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-45374278898731422492015-12-09T07:29:00.001-08:002015-12-09T07:29:40.937-08:00Productive Jan!To be done in January:<div>- Explore Grad School</div><div>- Explore opportunities for collaboration with Helga, Arto</div><div>- Explore detailed partnership with Sano and Kumala</div><div><br></div><div>Let's be productive, this time early!</div><i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-48263512888860545632015-12-04T21:42:00.001-08:002015-12-04T21:42:33.965-08:002015 Reflection<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify; text-justify: inter-ideograph;">
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the time of the year when you’re supposed to another reflection of the passed
year! How time flies. It felt like yesterday when I decided to leave YLI, a
place that I called home, my comfortable zone and shelter, which also shaped me
up professionally. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I
remember exactly that I wrote the same piece last year when I was still in the
office, when I got time to do it. Nowadays life is quite different; I don’t
really have the time to write as much as I was before. But I do feel thankful
for what have happened and for what I’ve been through this year. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I look back and reflect, I now feel confident leaving YLI, which was a big step
in my life since it’s a great place to work, network and develop my personal
side (especially with the great people and environment). However, now that I am
in a bank with more stakeholders to manage and build relationships with,
alongside its complications and steep curve, I knew why I left and it was for a
good reason. I do learn what I would otherwise not have learned in YLI. <o:p></o:p></div>
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This
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experienced a lot more ups and downs rather than a steady interaction like it
was before. Yet, with those “roller coaster” rides, we are surer that we can keep
holding on. So yes, I am hopeful and optimistic things can get better. <o:p></o:p></div>
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God,
thank You for the wonderful blessings, and for taking care of me. I am forever
grateful for what You have done in my life. <o:p></o:p></div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-15053888668904576752015-11-27T04:11:00.001-08:002015-11-27T04:11:46.097-08:00Jakarta makin sinting. Pengguna jalan makin brutal, ganas, dan kehilangan kemanusiaannya. Saat ini supir taksi yang baru saja menabrakkan spionnya ke sesama supir taksi dari perusahaan yang sama dengan tenangnya membetulkan kaca spion, tanpa minta maaf atau merasa risih. Ketidaksabaran menjadi bahasa sehari-hari. Keramahan, sopan santun, semuanya cuma di kamus saja. <i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-5305284556312773352015-11-15T20:32:00.001-08:002015-11-15T20:32:13.020-08:00I love it whenever you hug me from the back, I fall directly to a deep sleep.<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-55448935369244049942015-11-11T07:04:00.001-08:002015-11-11T07:04:18.049-08:00Being an idealist kills me many times. I feel bitter, I feel way too disappointed with the world, with the people. I am fatigue. <div><br></div><div>All I ever hope is for things to fall into places. Well I do demand certainty, but I guess I am being selfish. </div><i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-86327841352062206232015-10-14T03:48:00.001-07:002015-10-14T03:50:02.244-07:00Last One<div style="text-align: justify;">
It feels surreal. There are too many things rushing through my head, keeping me awake at night. Everything flashes by. The memories, the questions, the wishes, the regrets, everything. And honestly, that is weakening.<br />
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Don't you remember it's just like few weeks ago I got back from my trip and how I felt so refreshed -guess that does not stay for long. You can't really mend things that are already broken, huh?</div>
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Oh yes, I am so tempted to cry, for all the things I failed doing. But what saddens me the most is that I know I inherit some of the attributes from my parents, and I feel clueless. I do want to be different, and I don't know why I am like this. Yes, I badly want to deny myself, redeem this feeling, but I guess reality bites. </div>
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This time, I am just hoping that I would toughen up. If possible, no single drop of tears. Because I am not sure if I could change anything. Maybe we're just not meant to be together. I just want to tell myself that I will be able to get through this. And I am starting the positive attitude not by crying to my bed, but by writing. To remind myself, that everything is possible. That bad times can turn into good ones depending on how we deal with it. </div>
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Hope I will stay spirited. This time for longer. Amen. </div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-34211254501559516432015-09-27T23:30:00.002-07:002015-09-27T23:30:59.745-07:00Reality?<div style="text-align: justify;">
I just realized how ambitious we were. After Teguh came back from Russia-Poland-Prague trip, we took the rest of the following weekends to Bali, Lampung, Singapore, Japan (only me) and lastly, Bangkok. I hardly remember the weekends that we spent in Jakarta. </div>
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From those trips, certainly we learned more about each other, what we like and dislike about each other -and that perhaps struck me with a fact that yes, maybe we are not ready yet. There's still a lot going on and the road is not a real smooth one. </div>
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Many people tying the knots these days, and I really mean "many". Sometimes I wonder why we are not there yet, but I started to understand why. Ours still needs a lot of work. Although what I really long is for us to live happily together, waking up to each other with a big smile and affection, cooking for dinner, and cherishing each and every moment together --I guess it's realistic to work on what we need to work on. </div>
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Just hoping for the best....</div>
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<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-3287572173445348522015-09-27T23:14:00.001-07:002015-09-27T23:18:25.824-07:00Post-Japan<div style="text-align: justify;">
Despite the abundant piles of work due to my absence, I still can't concentrate to finish my work. It still feels like holiday, like I am not ready to go back and face the reality. Reality bites, people said. I guess it's true. </div>
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The short trip to Japan quite helped me to gain fresh (if not new) perspective on (purpose and partner of) life. I feel new, I feel energized, I feel <i>happy</i>. It gives me my sanity back. And I swear I don't want to let anyone ruin it. Wish me luck this time :D</div>
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It was such an adventurous, memorable trip! Thanks to the best host ever, Faelasufa. It was seriously so much fun travelling with you!<br />
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<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-43564647690372203982015-09-03T03:03:00.001-07:002015-09-03T03:03:27.770-07:00True Colors?<br />
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“You with the sad eyes…</div>
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In a word full of people</div>
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The more you grow up, the more you will be likely
to feel exactly that. I am in the point of life when everything looks blurry to
me. I can no longer see who I really am nor what I really want in life. I am
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I go through days when I started to learn that I
have been naïve the whole time. I thought I made my priority clear, and
apparently that just did not happen. You are simply not satisfied with
everything, you can never have it all, not with a smallest chance. You got
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You started to question everything, if you made the
right choices, if you would ever be successful, but on top of all, if you just
have a bad omen. Seriously, sounds ridiculous but you just can’t help it.</div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-71618278112695520542015-07-22T05:53:00.003-07:002015-07-22T05:53:23.629-07:002nd Year Reflection<br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">July 15, 2015 marked my 2<sup>nd</sup>
work anniversary. It felt like a short
time, but the amount of lessons learned is probably surmountable –or to put
simply, beyond what I expected. I was very fortunate to choose Project Officer role
at the Young Leaders for Indonesia (YLI) Foundation as my first job out of
college, simply because of the learning curve, the great culture of work, and
the network I had built throughout my time there. As I moved to my 2<sup>nd</sup>
job in DBS Bank, I wonder if there would ever be a better place than YLI in
terms of working environment –which says much about the culture. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">One said that my reality is
twisted because although YLI is a foundation, and contrary to what people have
in mind about non-profit organizations, YLI is very strict on professionalism
and high performance –thanks to McKinsey & Company who safeguarded the
whole operations. On the learning curve, the culture and the network, of course
it was highly influenced by how McKinsey does things. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The non-hierarchical culture,
where everyone, despite of their background and status, will be valued for
their opinion. It is a merit-based organization where politics is hardly to be
found. And that is scarce in Indonesia because most people will be respected
when they are either senior, rich, or with high positions. People would then
work hard to be able to reach the top, without having to worry about being cut
off by someone who does not belong there. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Aside from that, I really
appreciate the feedback culture they implemented. People are taught to be open
to feedback, in fact regard it as a gift. Same thing applies to the giver; they
need to know that giving feedback is actually a favor, and keeping it away from
the people means doing them a disfavor. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And so I met wonderful people
during my time there, people who taught me much about leadership and helped me
build an idea of the ideal leaders and work environment, which later on, sadly,
caused me to struggle grasping the reality. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Working with such great talents,
purpose-driven and highly professional people in the past, I am now very much stressed
out knowing the fact that it was way too difficult finding the same situation
anywhere else under the sun. Worse, my got told me that it was only going to
get worse outside these multinational companies. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Apart from that, however, working
in a commercial institution has helped to balance my social spirit even better.
I am expected to think from many different angles, hit so many birds with one
shot, and try to benefit the business through a social cause. Yes, I took care
of the CSR and Internal Communication unit. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I asked for a different
challenge, and here I am, with a totally different situation: large
organizations with so many stakeholders to take into account, relatively large
team (compared to what I had before), a lot more activities to handle (so yes,
I need to wear many different caps under the two units), more complex
processes, for sure, higher expectations. Nothing is seriously easier. Well, I
guess that’s the idea of a promotion, no?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Yes, I am stressed out. I still
do the things I love most of the time, and I still do things I do not really
like but have to do anyway. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Nevertheless, all these realities
will stay unknown had I not jumped into the real life and continued studying. I
never imagined how hard it is to be independent and make a living. Never had I
imagined the stress level I would be at and honestly this is way beyond what I
thought I could comprehend. Yet, I survived, and still striving to survive each
and every day, with the many challenges. Just hoping I would be able to get
through it and make it out safely.</span></div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-41183813061044927502015-07-20T10:21:00.001-07:002015-07-20T10:21:07.635-07:00Different<div style="text-align: justify;">
This is where I usually am: having my insomnia in the middle of the night, so triggered to write, but so tempted to try to sleep. Just met with Beki after a while to find out that we're probably sharing the same problem: being tough (or in my dictionary: being abnormal). I mean, look at me. I am nothing near normal. </div>
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My overthinking habit drives me nuts, most of the time. But don't you think that someone's strength is someone's weakness? And that it works the other way around? At least I think so. I think it helped me to become who I am today -maybe. Or maybe not. </div>
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Do I wish to be someone different? To be less insecure, at least. To be less fragile, for sure. I wish I have talents, and hobbies, because judging simply from my problems, I don't have hobbies and that's what kills me. An independent woman who built her happiness around a guy -that kills me first. </div>
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Why can't I be myself? Why am not allowed to be comfortable about it? Why do the rest of the world seems to protest against it? Is it my fault to be different?</div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-29480856687725429632015-07-18T12:01:00.000-07:002015-07-19T05:36:23.799-07:00Getting There<div class="MsoNormal">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">As career occupies a big chunk of many people’s life, the
question “Will I ever be a success?” haunts us most of the time. Despite the
relative measure of success, many want to find their life’s purpose, leave
positive footprints, and most importantly, be happy. One of the most affordable
ways to build on success is to look for a role model and get inspired to work
on your own. What Gillian Zoe Zegal did with <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Getting There</i> is exactly that. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Through the thirty people whose life stories she covered in
the book, I learned how these entrepreneurs, artists, architect, social
workers, chef, and professionals came from many different backgrounds; some
needed to experience disheartening childhood from personal loss, discrimination
and bullying, or tough times getting through formal education whereas some
others were lucky enough to find their passion early on and spend the rest of
their life focusing to develop it. Some came from a rather poor family while
some had a privilege to go to great schools and have no problems in paying
tuition. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The common threads I found from these people are that they:</span><br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Outwork everybody else to exist today</i></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">From Michael Bloomberg (Bloomberg L.P.
Founder, Former New York City Mayor) to Rachel Zoe (Fashion Stylist); from
Anderson Cooper (Journalist) to Jeff Kinney (Diary of Wimpy Kid Author) they
believed that the only reason they exist today is because they work hard. That
all the achievements made were not because of luck, but by mere hard work.
Bloomberg admitted to have been coming earliest to the office and going home
the latest to be able to be where he is today. But that is not all, Anderson
Cooper helped to see that being hardworking also means to work on the things
people avoid. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">For Jeff Kinney, it means working on the
Diary of Wimpy Kid for more than 8 years –to present its first draft because he
remember being told in the fifth grade by his teacher to “embrace excellence
and not accepting praise for something he knew wasn’t great,” which later on
helped him to be patience and keep improving his work before he let people see
it. On that, however, Hans Zimmer (Lion King Composer) admitted that there are
times when you need to accept defeat –where you came into a point that it just
did not work and embrace it as part of the process. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Muhammad Yunus debunked the idea of a bank
by inventing the microfinance concept; he started off with 27 dollars, but
ended up helping millions of people on the planet with this approach. That did
not come straightforwardly. He had to instill a new understanding, while
challenging an Islamic thinking built on for centuries, that women shall be
allowed to manage money -in fact they created welfare out of the money lent. This has proven to be enormously hard to do –which
took them six years to reach their initial goal: to make women fifty percent of
the borrowers.</span><br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Work around their competence</i></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Warren Buffet set this point since the first
few pages of the book, how he became successful because he worked on the areas
where his strength lies, which is analyzing businesses. Apparently, this is
something all thirty people shared in common. Though some needed to explore it
and spent almost half of his/her life figuring out what he/she wanted to do, at
the end of the day, they worked on something they knew they were good at,
passionate about, and not having to drag themselves to work every day. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Nevertheless, it does not mean that you only
work on something you already feel comfortable with and does not challenge the
status quo. In fact, you need to keep exploring new things, which will only
expand our options and help you with your future endeavors. Stacey Snider
(Co-Chairman 20<sup>th</sup> Century Fox) never predicted how her law degree
from UCLA and experience working for an entry level in an entertainment agency
would help her tremendously in choosing which script to be adopted into a
movie. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">So it is definitely okay to wander, just
like Jim Koch (Brewer and Founder of the Boston Beer Company) who took a job as
Outward Bound Instructor –where he basically guided people to hike mountains,
completed his law and business programs at Harvard and became Consultant at
Boston Consulting Group before he found what he eventually was set out to do:
making his own beer. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And work does not always have to journey
linearly, like what Helene Gayle (CARE USA President and CEO) believed in.
Growing up thinking to help people through medicine, Helene finally completed
her study also in public health. Later on, from focusing on combatting HIV/AIDS
with CDC –where she dedicated her life to work towards positive change, she
went to Gates Foundation to understand how the privately funded organization
before she moved to CARE USA where she is currently working towards poverty
eradication. She always believed that we can never really map life out in precision;
therefore we might as well keep ourselves to new experiences, new
opportunities, or even expand our options.</span><br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Believe in their guts and keep moving
forward despite the hardships the face along the way</i></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">All kinds of troubles will only get in the
way, most artists like Jeff Koons admitted being mocked for their works and
there was nothing unique about that occurrence. J Craig Venter, PhD who was
able to sequence human genome, or John Paul Dejoria (John Paul Mitchell
Systems/Patron Spirits Company Co-Founder) were even fired after the tremendous
achievements they made for the organizations they worked for. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It is so easy to get discouraged along the
way, but the only advice these people gave was that we all need to believe in
our guts, and keep moving forward. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">None actually experienced luck after luck
after luck, nor privilege after privilege after privilege. The only thing I
read so far was that they encountered too many obstacles that would only break
the spirit. Gary Hirshberg (Stonyfield Farm Chairman and Co-Founder) worked for
the organic yoghurt since 1983, only to be able to make their first profit nine
years later, pass Kraft in yoghurt sales five years later and become the
world’s largest organic yoghurt maker six years after acquiring Brown Cow. If
he decided to give up in the first few years, when they had USD 500,000 in debt
and it seemed like there was no way out, there will certainly be no Stonyfield
today. He and his co-founder stick to their mission and progressed through,
even though it took years to finally pay off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">So yes, at last, these inspiring people could only connect
the dots backwards. No matter how they started, the adversity they went through
along the way, when they reached the moment of success, they celebrated it with
happiness. That, I guess, applies to us as well. There is no secret path to
success, only hard work that will prevail. </span><o:p></o:p></div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-33696366096248697532015-06-25T03:37:00.001-07:002015-06-25T03:37:42.876-07:00Do you know how much I am worried about you?<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-13133718687207523302015-06-20T11:28:00.001-07:002015-06-20T11:28:53.608-07:00And lame at the same time..Whenever you feel like you have nothing else to live for, step back and look at how others live their life. Today when I heard about what happened to other people near me, how much struggle they needed to go through, I felt stricken by a tsunami. <div><br></div><div>I am just a spoiled brat, complaining about how my life has been so tough because one relationship that crushes not only my feeling but also inner self, but I know nothing about the real struggle in life. </div><div><br></div><div>I am such an ungrateful little creature. So weak and super lame. Life has been really tough for others -imagining myself in their situation, I don't know where else to go but to kill myself. </div><div><br></div><div>Their situation is worth suicide for. It is 10,000 times harder than mine. And I acted like I am the only victim that deserves to give up. What an embarassment.</div><div><br></div><i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-89431582997837579632015-06-20T09:15:00.001-07:002015-06-20T09:15:02.931-07:00WeakI am frustrated, to be very honest. It is so easy for you to say things, promise someone something, but to actually walk the talk, I barely survive. <div><br></div><div>The thought of suicide flashes over in my head, again and again. I just wish to sleep and never wake up. Suffocating. Found myself crying in the corner try to absorb everything. </div><div><br></div><div>Why has this been so hard? And it will only be harder. Why am I so weak?</div><i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-84301757275661388632015-06-04T10:49:00.003-07:002015-06-04T10:49:51.009-07:00Opened<br />
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If I could summarize what
happened to me recently: I woke up –opened my eyes and saw the reality. As
harsh as it might be, it had beaten me: I have been very naïve this whole time.
Perhaps it is a common thing for a college graduate to feel, but honestly, I
was quite shocked when I found that the world is far from being kind, just and
fair to people. The kind of people this world celebrates is not as what I
imagined before. In fact, it is nowhere near what I have imagined during my
college year. </div>
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I thought I have had this reality
check before, when I realized that “to go to heaven, you don’t necessarily need
to be a nurse”. Meaning that if you want to create an impact in this world,
there are plenty of ways to do it. Immersing yourself in a commercial
institution does not always mean “bad” and “filthy”. </div>
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Apparently, that is not the only
thing. Reality check comes frequently, not just once. In fact, I just found out
how this world is full of terrible people –it does not know any gender, race,
socio economic background, education background whatsoever, I just have been
living in a cage. This world is full of terrible, terrible people who snap at
others, who are impolite, who are sarcastic, who are full of themselves and
have no sympathy towards other people. I don’t even know if they care about any
other people but themselves. </div>
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It is such a shame, that being
kindhearted does not bring us anywhere. It brings us to a limbo, you hardly
trust what is happening surround you because you just cannot accept the fact
that people could do horrible things to others, especially when they get in
their ways. Surprising, huh? You think you can depend on certain brands, you
will find good people in certain organizations/community; you might want to
think again. Because that is simply not true. </div>
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The world, or maybe only the
commercial world (and I am afraid that everything in this world is now driven
by money) only appreciates results. The world is turning into a
result-orientation machine where people care less about the process and want to
cut the chase only to get the result they want. And for that, people dare to
kill, to be able to get anywhere they want. It is damn scary. </div>
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Am I being to paranoid? I am
afraid not. I am just hoping that it gets better over time. </div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-15795481613635965552015-06-03T06:01:00.001-07:002015-06-04T10:50:29.749-07:00Fall Into My Love<br />
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Just spent wonderful quality time over the short-long break :)</div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-9635428520990115512015-06-01T07:01:00.002-07:002015-06-01T07:01:48.180-07:00Bosan<div style="text-align: justify;">
Writing can be so boring. I even find it a daunting task. However badly I want to be a food blogger, or an author, I just can't apply the discipline of writing -despite the rewarding feeing afterwards. Watching movies almost every time works better than blogging, sadly. And so I get caught up in the passive behavior instead of a more stimulating one. </div>
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Up to one extent that I simply can't take it anymore. My head is too full, questioning a lot of things. Those questions seemed to crash one another inside the brain, waiting to be answered, or at least cared. </div>
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Life is a simply complicated. There are not much changes. As much as people want to change, they stay the same. I stay the same, with more or less the same complication. I just knew that I got my reality check, most of the times in both "panggilan hidup" and "pasangan hidup". Life threw me to a different world, the one that I have never imagined before. </div>
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It is hard, but it is also easy. It is just full of contradiction. You want to be thankful, yet things get tough many times. You want to make impact at work, but the situation is quite toxic you know you'll get affected. You want to be rational, but you can't help being too emotional. And so on and the opposite. </div>
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So you get confused most of the times. And I am not sure if that is a good sign, or a bad sign. There are just way too many things you want to achieve but you need to face the ugly truth that it is not happening. You want to be extraordinary, but you like the ordinary. </div>
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Or maybe it is the humane part of life, or of human. Human just don't change. Human just like to stay comfortable. </div>
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Or it may not. </div>
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I am seriously not sure. I get even more confused the more I write. </div>
<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-77984345768040408332015-05-26T09:33:00.001-07:002015-05-26T09:33:09.200-07:00I can tell the difference when I am being rational and emotional. Not sure if it is because of my sickness, but I am as flat as a wall. I am just frustrated with the heat.<i>gadis</i>http://www.blogger.com/profile/00409144241861719507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4843667907242178023.post-12231032563032046482015-05-25T07:10:00.003-07:002015-05-25T07:10:32.969-07:00Two and One<blockquote class="tr_bq" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">“If you can go through
this, you can go through everything.”</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">More or less, that is the
moral of the story that he feels like telling me. Well, I could not deny the
fact that it has been tough. Honestly, I have never been in this situation
before. Turns out, it is killing me. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But I do not think I will
die. Maybe not. I am known for my rants. I am used to ranting about many
things, hardship in life is definitely included. One thing that I seem to miss
out is the fact that I am my biggest enemy. Yes, my head. My brain. My negative
mindset seems to get in the way. AND YES I CAN NOT BE MORE THAN TIRED this
point of time. I AM EXHAUSTED to face same challenge every time, and to face
the reality that PEOPLE DO NOT CHANGE. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Hmmm, that’s tricky
though. At some point I feel like I begin to get better. Like, seriously, a
better person. But, at some other point, I DO NOT. LIKE, REALLY. In fact, these
days, I feel WORSE. I am turning into a monster. AND THAT IS EVEN HARDER TO
FACE. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Blaming others is the easiest
thing, of course. Dealing with the truth, is what one sometimes could not
comprehend –and I guess that is me, btw. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Ah ya, I know you can’t
get what I am writing. Me neither. My thoughts have been too spread out and
jumbled at the same time. </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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