the inconvenient truth

yesterday, perhaps i was facing a really inconvenient truth.

a truth that smacked my hope down.

initially, i didn't want to open my heart for such thing like love.

i have hurted enough. and i don't want to feel anything painful like that, at least for the rest of this year, or the upcoming year.

but, unfortunately, brokenhearted is something we can't hide of, or something we can avoid.

it's just happened to me. and i need to face it, whether i like it or not.

well, i opened my heart for someone whom at first i never thought i could fall for.

i wasn't sure how did it come to me.

at first, i was so careful not to open it for anyone.

but at last, i can't deny. i have fallen for someone.

and when i realized there were something entering me, 

i should deal with the fact that it can't be exactly like i've always wanted.

it is a dead end.

the funny thing is, i cried.

mm, that's something i didn't expect.

i thought i was gonna be fine. but then i didn't.

i tried to run away, make distance,

but i simply can't.

because now, i get stuck on it. and can't turn back easily.

the face remained. in my head.