You are different from many I know. You have your own world, sanity, with only you own the key. You may not think so, but I do. And even if it is true, I have nothing against it. In fact, it is the uniqueness in you I find relieving. It is the uniqueness in you I find nicely challenging. It is you that creates the fun. So stop trying hard to think it through. I am just fine with who you are.