Looking at how people achieve success can be such a painful moment for anyone, including me. Knowing that some of my friends actually started to realize their dreams by running a business start-up, or even gaining significant improvements on the brand, spending each day traveling and presenting, studying for a master's degree, or leading a column in mass media, always made me "this little".
I always asked myself a question, "What am I even doing here and now?"
Working my ass off day and night, spending my weekend for work, for what? A big salary? Good facilities? Experience? Or none?
Well, it's been crazily challenging to me to stay focus with whatever I am doing, and keep a balanced perspective. I never feel sad for my friends' success, in fact I feel very touched. Since I am more to a self-centered person, I always look down to myself at the end of the day, instead of feeling jealous. I feel ashamed for not being able to reach success at this age of my life. I even ask if the 22 years of my life has been rewarding for other people, or at least myself.
People get to lose hope very easily, I am of no exception. I would always repeatedly ask if I have been making enough impact to the world. And the patron I worked for told me that I should just give myself a break. "Don't push yourself too much, give it a break once in a while," was the thing he mentioned to me.
Will I make the change I believe in? Well, let's be hopeful. Let's just keep working hard.
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