Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Tumben Bijaksana

Life may not have been this (wonderfully) hard. I see people who put real trusts, show great care, and the same time burning passion in a certain degree. Ideally, you can get a golden ticket; get a position where you can develop tremendously; be passionate about the job; create high impact and live wealthy. But that, my friend, is not what I am getting.

I am getting a serious challenge instead; one that I know will contribute much to my maturity. I am faced with a number of options. Great options, by the way. And after thorough deliberation, I am proud that the real dilemma can be narrowed down into three options.

The first one allows me to learn something that I think (at least right now) I am passionate about. I can pursue my dream to create an impact in an organization, through its people. The downside is, the organization has faced a reputation challenge in the past, the one that I feel really irritated about because I am afraid it will ruin mine too. But the promise is high, also is the appreciation, the seriousness, it’s the best.

The second one, allows me to experience “real business”, ups and downs and at the same time, sense of authority – an opportunity to become a real leader, in such young age. It’s going to give me the set skills I need to survive anywhere in my career. The downside is the fact that this is not what I have wanted to master at, which is human development.

The third one is my comfort zone, the place where I know exactly what’s in front of my eyes, including what I will and will not get out of the process. It provides me the chance and work with talented people, which so far has rewarded me with huge positive energy.

Some part of my brain pushes me to go with my pre-determined goal, which is to become a specialist. I badly want to deep dive into something real (something that is not a function). Passion is, without doubt, the torch in this journey.

The other part of me struggled much not to miss an opportunity to become a true leader, warrior and gladiator. In the end, I don’t know. I always end up getting confused. One person asked me to follow my heart (actually everybody did, including myself). Maybe, that is where I shall go.

It’s now a virtue and a curse of being someone who was born as part of generation Y. I aspire big. I hope these opportunities will come at the right time (read: soonest in life).

I was born in the era when people told you to just work according to your passion that you don’t settle for less than the work you love (Steve Jobs). Unfortunately, we fail to recognize the fact that time does its own math and logic. Things don’t fall into places at the wrong time. They do when they think it’s time.

You thought you know what’s ahead of you and what you really, really want. In fact, you might be wrong, for you are not exposed to the “real world” yet. You can be stubborn you want to accelerate every process. You want to fast forward your career to the phase where you enjoy making impactful decision to certain number of people, with great set of challenges that keep you grow or positive energy and rewarding compensation. But hey, we need to know what we need to know.

Processes taught us best. We just need to get through the processes, with patience and continuous hard work, where Napoleon Hill added perspiration and persistence on to the table. 

Only by then, we can find a victory in leading oneself, to allow process take part in the journey. Also to train us to listen to our soul and heart. My journey just gets started. And I’m thrilled beyond words. First step, is definitely to decide what’s next, by following my heart. If I take wrong call, I know I’ll learn much from the process.



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