postingan baru yang harus positif :D

holaaaaaaaaaa

hari ini adalah hari pertama gw harus memulai menulis blog dengan postingan2 yang positif :D karena gw telah berjanji di postingan sebelumnya, bahwa hidup gw harus berubah. at least yang pertama gw ubah adalah cara gw menulis blog hehe

jadi cerita untuk 3 hari ini akan sangat panjang, sebab ada banyak sekali perjalanan indah selama 3 hari ini. sehingga, yang akan gw ceritakan hanya seperintil dulu *haahahaha apa itu seperintil.

intinya, hari ini gw mendapat wejangan dari seseorang, bahwa gw ga perlu lagi lah minder dengan orang lain. gw punya kok kemampuan yang cukup untuk menjadikan gw sukses di kemudian hari. kemampuan itu tinggal diasah, dan dipikirkan matang2.

gw tinggal harus bersabar, memilah2, dan memilih yang mana yang akan gw tekuni nanti setelah gw lulus kuliah.

why that statement came up?

karena udah beberapa hari ini gw meneror dia dengan bilang bahwa "gw ga tau mau jadi apa setelah lulus kuliah, terutama dengan bidang yang gw tekuni saat ini (komunikasi)"

so, itulah jawaban dia yang super diplomatis.

:) love it

GREAT DISCOVERY ;) OF ME

you know what. i just did blogwalking around my friends' blogs.

and what i found is one thing.

they always update their blog to inform and show the "good news" from their life.

and it triggers me to think even much deeper about it.

okay, i know now you might be confused about what i am writing in, but one thing that i want to explain to you is that :

blog shows how exactly you see your life.

when you see life as something that is extraordinary and fun - thus you can't waste your time while you're living - you will write everything that you think is extraordinary and fun too IN YOUR BLOG.

on the other hand

when you see life as something that is pathetic and full of sadness - thus you can't stop whining and complaining - you will write everything that you think is pathetic and full of sadness too IN YOUR BLOG

AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT IM DOING FOR ALMOST MY ENTIRE LIFE!

I ALWAYS LOOK FOR THE NEGATIVE SIDES, THE NEGATIVE PARTS OF MY LIFE.

I CAN'T STOP WHINING AND COMPLAINING AND REGRETTING WHAT I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH.

and what does that mean?

THAT MEANS :

1. I AM A NEGATIVE THINKER

2. ITS HARD FOR ME TO BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE

3. THAT MAKES MY LIFE GOES AROUND IN MISERY FOR ALL OF THESE TIMES

4. THAT'S WHY MY BLOG POSTS WERE FULL OF SADNESS TOO

4. IF I DONT WANT TO CHANGE, I WONT CHANGE FOREVER

okay then, for now on, i think i NEED to change, or i'll be like this forever.

you know, change always starts from a very little thing to bigger things.

that's exactly what i am going to do.

from my blog.

i want to see a better life

therefore i need to be a positive thinker rather than keep cursing everything in my life.

then i hope my life would be better.

yeah, i really need to change.

GOSH, thank you for alda and lidya for inspiring me through your blog.

i can see it clearer now.

i love you guys.

and i miss you all like crazy!

bingung harus ngasih judul apa

hari ini gw baru sadar, kalo gw datengin blog seringnya kalo gw lagi sedih..

hahaha blog adalah tempat curhat gw, when i feel i have no one to tell..

well, actually gw lagi dalam masa2 kejenuhan hidup gw sih..

lagi bosen aja sama keadaan yang ada.

pengen berontak.

dan pengen memulai hidup baru yang totally different.

tapi tentunya yang gw suka.

aaaah pengen cepet2 liburan dan melewati masa2 ini.

gila ya, tapi liburan bakal masih lama banget. gw harus melewati juni dan juli, bulan penuh tantangan. hahahahahaa

agustus gw baru akan bener2 libur..

itupun kalo beneran libur.

well, i wish ga akan ada acara2 lain sih..

(yang feeling gw pasti ada..)

ah, jadi gatau mau nulis apa..

hahaha

images of you

sometimes, you are a blanket to me

covering me through cold nights

preventing me from any shiver

with your everlasting warmth

another times, you become an umbrella,

which always gives me shades

whenever heart of sun stings me

whenever drops of rain pound me

you form many of my dreams,

leading me to another bright life.

from the time i rest my soul

you fill my underworld with joy

not only have you dived in my life,

these many images of you

have been parts of my heart

and i hope, they'll always be

diberikan oleh seseorang di tanggal 28 juli 2007,

what a long time ago.

unfinished work

i believe i can fly

i believe i can touch the sky

i think about it every night and day

i'll spread my wings and i fly away

i believe i can soar

i see me running through that open doors

i believe i can fly

...

aku tak tahu ke mana akan ku bawa kehidupanku ini

rasa-rasanya semua keutuhan tak kudapatkan lagi

masing-masing terbang mencari sarang,

mengecup kehidupan yang lebih baik

ingin rasanya aku berteriak lantang,

menghujam gendang telinga orang-orang

lelah rasanya mengusap tangis,

memimpikan sebuah langit yang lebih cerah

dan sayap yang kuat untuk menjangkau angkasa

satu persatu, ranting itu patah. jatuh.

menyentuh tanah.

rontok.

semuanya.

terutama angan-anganku.

...

...

(unfinished work pas sma - gw temukan sewaktu membongkar barang-barang lama)

desperado

im so desperate, UAS is coming

too bad, i haven't prepared anything!

OMG,

please give me some miracle!